Low Self-Esteem and Feelings of Grandiosity are Egotistical & an Aspect of Mental Illness

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Definitions of mental illness include phrases such as “disorders that affect your thinking and your ability to relate to others,” according to The Mayo Clinic and NAMI.  Maybe that is why the Word of God instructs us to avoid relying on our own understanding and thoughts.

We are instructed to not “lean to our own understanding” in Proverbs the 3^rd chapter.  The New Testament holds an instruction to “destroy every thought that raises itself against the knowledge of God” in 2 Cor. 10:5.

Even 12-step programs understand the harm caused when we obey only our own thoughts.  We call it “EGO.”  EGO is also an acronym for Easing God Out.  My argument is that when we think too highly or too lowly of ourselves, we demonstrate signs of a dis-order in our thinking and stand egotistically against the Word of God.

Members of 12-step programs are familiar with how the ego gets in the way of our ability to make sound decisions.  Initially, someone seeking relief from behavior that demonstrates self-harm is unaware of the harm they have going on in their head.  However, over time, the more healthy relationships a person builds, the more they practice the 12 steps and accountability with a sponsor, a light bulb of self-awareness begins to shine. 

This is when being in recovery is a blessing because we can see our character defects and negative, destructive thinking patterns as in direct violation of spiritual principles, universal law and God’s Word.

Recent news events have made me think of the alternative ways people display dis-ease in their thinking.  Yes, I am referring to the former NAACP President in Spokane, WA and the person who killed church members in South Carolina. 

Morally, we believe it is wrong to harm other people, lie, cheat, kill and steal.  Anytime a person decides to behave in such a fashion, they are literally Easing God Out.  (Some might argue it is a shove, but that doesn’t work as an acronym for this article.)

Granted, some may disagree with me that Easing God Out is a form of mental dis order – but they are also entitled to their opinion.  My argument is that we are all guilty of thinking and doing what we want to do, when we want to do it.  And anytime that occurs, we are acting out of a place that does not demonstrate humility under Universal Law.  We are disrespecting God, other people and denying the human dignity of both ourselves and others.  We are God instead of being under God.

Our society likes to have a standard of behavior to measure right and wrong.  It is right to pay for groceries, clothing and makeup.  It is wrong to steal.  These moral forms of justice are also biblical and universal.  So, lying is missing the mark.  It is deceiving someone into believing something that is not true.  It is also proof of a faulty thinking pattern...dis ease. 

When we think too low of ourselves, we are easing God out.  God says we are wonderfully made and therefore, self-loathing and self-hatred are exalted thoughts against the knowledge and Word of God.

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The same goes for believing we are invincible, better than others and have the right to kill.  Signs of faulty thoughts and thinking patterns exalted and lifted up against the knowledge and Word of God.  

Our society is suffering and that means people are too.  Maybe one of the worst decisions this country ever made was to Ease God Out of its daily affairs: education, politics, government, etc.  The extremes that people stretch to protect themselves, advance their own agendas and, subsequently, hurt others have reached unbelievable heights. 

One source of hope for me is that judging other is NOT the solution.  Praying for others is one solution.  Focusing on my own “right” behavior is another solution.  Allowing others to help me monitor my behavior, thoughts and moods helps too.  In this way, I remain accountable to Christ and others for my behavior and will not get stuck in leaning to my own understanding. 

Granted, none of us does this perfectly, including me.  But it is the grace of God that allows us to humbly ask for direction.  If we obey what we hear and read, we grab hold of a peace that passes all understanding.  It comes from living out God’s desires for our lives.  This peace is a sign that dis ease and dis order in our thinking will not rule the way we live our lives.

Be blessed,

M

Don’t Hide: Facing your Life and its Difficult Consequences

Often I think of historical religious leaders who failed in their personal lives only to face the public’s scrutiny.  It is difficult.  Mostly, it is difficult because many times the fallen soldier must figure out how to stand up again with little communal compassion or supportive arms and words.

Yet, they do.  We do.  You can too.

Anyone Can Fall

Recently my online perusal revealed a woman who went to a prestigious K-12 boarding school.  She was expelled during her senior year and even though she came from a wealthy family, she decided to start a prostitution business after graduating from college.

Needless to say, she was caught, convicted, served time and re-emerged on New York’s social scene several years later. 

Shunned, shamed and confident, she began to rebuild her life.  She wrote a book, which is too expensive for me to purchase, and eventually caught the eye of a businessman who helped her market herself anew.  As fairy tale stories tend to end, it appears she is doing well now.

For some of us, that is not the case. 

Returning to the Public Eye

Surely this woman still sees the sideway glances when she walks into a room.  I assume those glances are easier to bear if you have a financial cushion.  That cushion allows you to travel, impulsively, to escape the glares, the whispers and the loneliness from a once familiar place.

This is where the toughest of the tough emerge.  This is when a sense of self and your own inherent value becomes critical to daily psychological survival.  Remember the pastor who was caught practicing homosexual behavior after publicly denouncing homosexuality?  Remember the Florida pastor who overdosed while traveling in New York?  Many other preachers have survived these challenges.  But there are also a bunch of musicians, actors, politicians and former presidents that have too.

So can we.  So can you.

Life goes on.  People get over themselves and our bruised egos begin to heal.  We had to learn the hard way, but the blessings and lessons of the struggle are clear:

1.       Be aware of your limitations.  When people fall, it usually isn’t an isolated incident.  Many people forget that there was a family connected to this person who fell.  The profession they tried to manage is now, most likely, gone.  Often, our poorest decisions are made in the heat a moment while trying to find a way to escape or cope with stress. 

But, sometimes falls happen because people are greedy.  No matter what the reason, the lesson is to know your limitations.  Overextending ourselves to meet materialistic goals or please others because we have a “title” or a “position” is dangerous.  When your psyche says, “I’m tired,” listen.  Respond. 

2.       Be aware of your needs.  Something is internally amiss when we seek external satisfaction for internal wounds.  Surely, someone is reading this and thinking, “Oh, yeah…blame it on your childhood.”  (I say, “Let’s forget that person for now.”)  Many of us have hidden secrets, shames, wounds and experiences that shaped us into who we are today. 

What can come out in therapy is the clear dysfunctions of our family that, in our mind, we have painted as rosy white picket fence experiences.  Stop lying to yourself.  Get some help.  Uncover those wounds and break free of your past hurts.  You are worth it.

3.       Be aware you lived to tell the story.  That pastor is Florida – he died.  But the rest of us, we have another chance at redemption.  We still have our life, our strength, our right mind (if lucky) and a story to tell.  Somewhere, someone needs to know you survived so they can equip their mind, body and soul to endure their particular situation.

It all seems for naught but it is not.  There is nothing better than knowing my personal testimony helps someone make a better decision, avoid a deep pothole or change the legacy of their family’s history. 

4.       Be aware you are valuable, worthy and deserving.  Mistakes don’t cancel our worth.  In fact, mistakes sometimes make us discover our true value to ourselves.  When we realize we don’t have to do or act in ways that are immoral or illegal to feel good about who we are, we find a sense of worth and value that was never there before.  Then, we realize we deserve a good life, because God said so.  We deserve and can have happiness and peace.

People may not forget what we have done, but God sees where we are going.  Let’s use our lives to bless others from both the places of success and failure.  You never know whose life you could save.

5.       Live.  Yes, live.  Live like there is no tomorrow, laugh like there was no yesterday, heal because you can and smile because the worst appears to be over.  Yeah, live!

Be blessed,

M

Remaining Consistent in Spite of Setbacks

Blows, bumps and bruises: byproducts of life.  Whether physical, psychological or financial, bouncing back from being knocked off balance can be difficult for a person managing a mental illness.

Major life events, such as the death of a loved one, the birth of a child, buying a home or being fired, can send a mental health consumer spiraling up or down, depending on their diagnosis.  There may or may not be other variables involved, but since we can’t control our external environments, it is best to know, to count on the fact that sometimes we will be knocked off the smooth course and rhythms of life.

A variety of medical professionals rely on the Holmes & Rahe Stress Scale to determine ones susceptibility to illness.  This scale outlines many major life events.  By using the scale, a person can determine how susceptible they are to experiencing illness as a result of any major life event. 

For the mental health patient, this is a good guide to heighten awareness of times that can be stressful.  Of course, there will be unexpected events, but being mindful to maintain emotional balance and mental wellness is very, very important.

Imagine if you had a succession of events.  Your likelihood of anxiety, depression, etc. increases as you juggle more events.  The good news is, for the mental health patient, this is a great way to be on the offense, instead of defense, during troubling times.

Consistency is now a top priority.

Author: David Castillo Dominici

Maintain your position:  Consistently practice self-care

Consistency is so important.  Whenever we strive to reach a goal, consistency keeps us on track.  Although we cannot always control external environments, continuing the routines of wellness will help us maintain balance.  

This means, keep taking medication, keep visiting the therapist and stay the course by remaining connected to your support group.  Whatever routines you developed to achieve wellness or recovery, maintain them to simulate balance during stormy times.

Maintain your position:  Consistently seek inspiration

The number of devotional books available for purchase is astronomical.  There are so many ways to feed one’s soul/spirit with inspiration that it seems a shame not to have something in place.  Our society has a way of jumping on the latest trends.  If you, as a mental health consumer, established the practices of mindfulness or meditation, keep them in place when trouble comes.

These activities not only keep us centered, but fed with seeds of hope, inspiration, positive perspectives and strength.  What you need for each day, you will find if you seek it consistently.

Maintain your position:  Focus on the future

Major life events have a way of pulling people into past guilt and shame.  “If only I hadn’t done this, if only I hadn’t moved here…if only….I should have, I would have” -- you get the picture.  These thoughts are a great seeds to plant in the soil of failure.  Setbacks can become a breeding ground for feeling “stuck in the mud.” 

Living life in the rear view mirror forces our eyes on yesterday and yesteryear.  

 Instead, know that you can only do something about today.  Forgive yourself.

Make positive plans for tomorrow.  Lay the course for a positive direction.

Find one person who believes in you and wants to help you succeed.

Focus on the future.  Focus…focus…yes, demand your mind stay focused!

As we consistently seek better states of wellness for ourselves, we demonstrate our commitment to recovery and living in life’s solutions.  I’m not saying that we will magically experience relief.  Instead, this is a reminder that consistency will and does pay off if we stay the course.

Be blessed,

M